Category: depression
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Highs and Lows
Do you have any memories of trying to walk up a slide? Many of us have done that as children, and depending on how slippery the slide is, and how grippy your shoes or feet are, is how fast you make it up. I remember sliding down as often as getting to the top. Life…
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Surrender=Healing (part 10)
One of the hardest things to do is to surrender. I have fought it all my life. I want things on my terms, with my conditions. I don’t know if all are the same, but many are. We can surrender certain things, at certain times…but letting it all go without any knowledge of where the…
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Getting There…. (part 9)
DYSTHYMIA! BOARDING SCHOOL SYNDROME! STRATEGIC SURVIVAL PERSONALITY! PTSD! It all sounded so overwhelming. I couldn’t really absorb what was going on in my head. It was getting messed up even more. I would walk around the house in circles, forgetting what I was doing. I would find myself forgetting things, and having conversations with myself…
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The “Miracle” Question! (part 8)
“If you woke up tomorrow morning, and a miracle had occurred, what would your life look like?” This is a common question asked by therapists. It helps us to see what we consider the “ideal” life to look like. What is it when we really hope for a miracle? So, I was asked the “miracle”…
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Flashbacks (Part 7)
Where did this PTSD come from? And why was it in my life? My parents had committed their lives to each other and to full time ministry, this was a safe environment, right? I had always thought so. My life, in a nutshell, had been a life full of adventure and excitement. I had lived…
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Trying to Walk (part 6)
Holding this prescription in my hands was so exciting for me!!! Validation at last! I am a mess! (hahaa) I now have a reason for all of the crazy thoughts and anger and for wanting it all to end. Relief was in sight…. I held on to that paper for a bit. All of a…
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The Meds…(Part 5)
Happiness? What is it that makes us happy? When one spends so much time trying to fit in and live the life of status quo, it’s a hard question to answer. Do you know what makes you happy? Was your immediate response “well, my life with Jesus makes me happy.” That’s usually the answer I…
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Who’s to Blame? (The Silent Scream, P4)
Is it okay to be angry at God? I think so. He created us, and understands anger. Is it acceptable to blame God for all of our problems? Is He the one to blame? Many people believe so. The world is full of anger and rage against God. He gets blamed for the natural disasters,…
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The Search Continues (Part 3)
How does one learn to define their needs? Or their feelings? What if they don’t know what they need or feel? Especially when the basic needs seem to be met. There are countless words that we can use to express emotion… dread suspicious frustrated livid repulsed dazed torn numb withdrawn mortified listless devastated frazzled overwhelmed…